I went into this date with the mindset that I had fucked up with this girl and that she was going to try to friendzone me.
The purpose of this date was to face the rejection instead of running from it to come home with my head held high. As a result, I came off a bit cold and distant but tried to keep it playful. She was still playful with me and receptive to my spikes, even trying for a kiss.
I turned down her kiss at first, and it totally surprised her. But as we kept joking around and accidentally brushed against each other, I started thinking I might still have a chance.
After an hour and one drink, I invited her back to my place again to do a personality test on my computer, to which she said yes. Once we were on the bed with my laptop, I started making out with her and it was game over.
Then, our pants off, condom on.
After sex, as we lay there talking I asked her: “When did you decide you were going to have sex with me?”
And she said: “I knew I wanted to have sex with you after I left your place on the first date.”
This surprised me because I had thought this entire time that I had made a catastrophic mistake which made her not want me anymore.
Even if you make a mistake, it’s completely okay. As long as the girl is still responding, keep going through the motions, even if every insecurity is telling you to eject.
There were many times between the first and second date, I wanted to text her something but I knew that would’ve made me come off even needier in her view.
The lesson I learned from this mentally exhausting lay was, don’t trust your emotions, TRUST THE GODAMN PROCESS.